Monday 22 September 2014

a notation.

I really feel like a child again
Being checked up on
When I ask a favor
I'm asking for a favor
If I've a problem understand
I will speak up!

I'm not ok with you
Thinking this is ok
I grew up,
I'm still growing up
But I have accomplished 
Necessities in speech,
and i shall use them.


Sunday 10 August 2014

I don't know unconditional love
my mother said she loved me
but how can you trust someone
who ran out on you with a pervert

It has been years now
and I can finally feel it
the silt at the bottom stir when the water is low

now when she emails me incoherence
and says how she misses and cares about us

you can't help but be angry
you can try ignore it,
and you get away with it
when the confidence has rained in



Monday 14 July 2014

It really is a pity
why I remain wasted
resentful
annoyed at this city.

I used to think you cute
curled up in my arms
with your head in tight.

I don't know where now to go
I know I'm afraid
my default set, is: isolate.

Can you call it good
to think you're trapped
when you think of places to leave
to and come up without


Friday 27 June 2014

There

How it was terrible.
I invested time,
my thought, 
I thought it was offensive
thats why I hid it.
but now I see I’ve hidden it
to keep away eyes 
that seek to rip it out.
There I failed.
When you said I would,
and now I have are you pleased
You knew me
there
I’ve said it.

I’ve lived up to everyone’s else

Thursday 15 May 2014

Why does one woman mean more?

One woman, represents all women.
It is a statement that always persists 
With a women's presences, 
because it is necessary to dispute history.
We, I, me.
I am in understanding of myself
I am a case of the collective.
But it is the collective of women
That first aids my composition of my ego. 

One man, means power.
No one man represents all men
He is closer, a representation of humanity
Than he is in stereotyping males.
No man would be trained to feel
Responsible for all males actions.
Only race, culture, age will bring 
A man to self reflection.

When I defend one women, I put
Aside how she failed
And I defend myself.

I swim in a mob.
I shouldn't.
I've never been a strong swimmer.

Sunday 9 March 2014

Does the Rational Belly Contain Animals?

            There are vast readings and writings investigating the use of the animal symbol, how such an embracing symbol can be used to signify anything. Evidently the extensive topic proves that the animal symbol can be used to argue any of the author’s individualistic ideas. Within custom, this essay will compare three texts that raise approaches to a meat-free diet, and the reasoning behind it. The periodic shift between the three texts may also allude to changing perspectives toward the topic due to cultural phenomena as explained in critical writings. Jonathan Swift’s text Gulliver’s Travels (1726) highlights issues within the English culture throughout different lands, and within book four, interrogates the animal perspective. The exploration of animal ownership through Gulliver’s journey is similar to Prendrick’s in H. G. Wells’ novel The Island of Doctor Moreau (1896), where animals of rational behaviour abstain from flesh, controlled by a humanist’s desire for evolution. An evolution J.M. Coetzee’s Elizabeth Costello (2003) would argue is caused from a lacking in our ‘humanities’. This investigation of the animal symbol will in addition, implore how the fictional space that literature creates is a platform to critique the morality of our actions.
The personal development undergone by Gulliver within book four is astronomical as he revaluates human mastery. The first voyage to Lilliput places Gulliver as a giant to preside over the minute Lilliputians as he pleases. Utilised as a monster of destruction against the King’s enemies, Gulliver is suspended within a balance of power, as his body affirms physical dominance, though he desires the royalty’s approval, acting as their aid. The application of obedience within the Lilliput visit persists until Gulliver’s final return from Houyhnhnmland. When he reunited with his family, finding them “intolerable, much less could I suffer to eat in the same Room”.[1]  This change of control also draws to point the breaking of conventional norms, which is reinforced through eating habits.
            Gulliver’s behavioural change around different company is an important reflection of how the consumption of animals is challenged by the end of the novel. Upon arrival to Lilliput, Gulliver is surprised at his inability to continue with pleasantries without food, where he presses his finger to his mouth repeatedly. The King replies by commanding “Baskets full of Meats” to be thrown into Gulliver’s mouth,[2] there being a loss of control over consumption through the barrier of language. The animal is also minimised and depersonalised as only a means of sustenance, “I observed there was the Flesh of several Animals, but could not distinguish them by the Taste. There were Shoulders, Legs and Loins shaped like those of Mutton, and very well dressed, but smaller then the Wings of a Lark”.[3] No real differentiation of description between animals can be given other then, “I eat them by two or three at a mouthful”,[4] which is an embellished illustration of the problems with vast consumption of meat and “the horrors I here omit” that surround farming industries.[5] The lavished quantity of animals consumed by Gulliver here may be contrasted to his descriptions of life and eating within the Land of the Houyhnhnms.
            Refocusing Gulliver’s experience within the fourth book away from an allegorical reading and onto an exploration of symbolic animals. The symbolic animals within Houyhnhnmland highlight an inversion of horses and humans within their roles of society. Gulliver’s first encounters with ‘brute’ yahoos, creatures that contain the same form of humans, though possess little capacity of rationality, contrasted with his meeting of the horse people of Houyhnhnm, “the Behaviour of these Animals was so orderly and rational so acute and judicious,”[6] The inversion of mastery is highlighted by Kelly as the “differences between the dominant,” where the ‘rational race’ maintain the ‘lesser creatures’ as serving companions,[7] placing the animal symbol within a human role, and lowering the human to creature. Placing Gulliver within a context that challenges all traditional values of western society causes the protagonist to contrast England and Houyhnhnmland, and drawing the conclusion that the second is the better, even if he occupies a serving role under a master.
The permanency that Houyhnhnmland has pressed upon Gulliver is again highlighted through his return home, when adding how his family know “to this hour they dare not presume to touch my Bread, or drink out of the same Cup,”[8] physically trying to distance himself from his yahoo family while recreating his Houyhnhnmland diet of mostly bread and milk. Gulliver discloses very early in this voyage with detail the Houyhnhnm’s diet, consisting of hay and oats, “neither of these were Food for me”,[9] leading him to producing bread, and drinking milk for sustenance, under the horse influence. The cultural connection that is established by food is present in Lilliput and again in Houyhnhnmland, where Gulliver “desires to return to ‘my own Species’”,[10] which is overcome when he manages to identify what he can eat.
The rationality of horses that act as a Lord over the land, are always juxtaposed by the image of the serving yahoos. The contrast in their diets is reflected within their manner, as the Houyhnhnms do not eat meat, they find it irrational, where as the yahoo “greedily devour” the ‘offensive’ flesh of other animals.[11] The differences between the Houyhnhnm’s diet and those of the yahoo, are reflected within their manner, where the horse doesn’t eat more then necessary, the yahoo greedily fights to eat in excess. This association between manner and diet is further theorised as Kelly outlines how “Houyhnhnmland displays the idealised pastoral features of Eden and the Golden Age” and that “as in Eden, vegetarianism prevailed in the Golden Age” as where “meat-eating did not commence until after the Fall”.[12] This contrast of paradise and the fall continue through Gulliver’s description of the horses to be a perfectly designed shape, against the inherent unsightly aspects of the yahoo. The relationship between the state of paradise of Houyhnhnmland and Gulliver’s overwhelming desire to remain within the horse community reinforces the rationality as well as justifies the rationality behind a vegetarian ideal.
           
            Gulliver uses yahoo skin as leather in an attempt to distance himself from the race of ‘brutes’, which is an act that may be associated with the introduction of The Island of Doctor Moreau, as Prendrick floats in a dinghy with two other men, and the idea of cannibalism is raised. As the protagonists within both texts are faced with a decision to desecrate humans, knowing Gulliver chose to use skin, Prendrick’s opportunity is drawn short when the opportunity is thrown overboard along with his two shipmates. The novel establishes animal instincts as a survival attempt, opposing the cultured ideas of civility. The questioning of cultural ideas is a strong theme reflected within Moreau as the cultural debate surrounding the early 19th century regarded Darwin’s theory of degeneration as a threat of a regression into savagery. As Lee outlines, that the “commonality between cannibalism and meat-eating” is a result from the degenerate theories, and that Wells’ novel establishes this interchangeable relationship immediately through the cannibal struggle.[13]
            Saved from the dingy, Prendick ends up cast upon Doctor Moreau’s Island, where experimental creatures roam. As Prendick comes to meet and understand how the demi-humans were created, he also learns how Moreau is maintaining order, by reproducing techniques of the church. The Sayer of the Law repeats as if a prayer to a chanting audience: “Not to go on all-fours; that is the Law. Are we not Men?”[14] To abstain from the consumption of the animal symbol is here symbolised as a way of accessing humanistic behaviour; “Not to eat Fish or Flesh; that is the Law. Are we not Men?”[15] Similarly to Gulliver, linking the rational beings with the vegetarian diet. As well as linking religiously to the description of Houyhnhnmland replicating a Golden Age, Wells can be seen doing a similar thing, as the human-esque animals do not partake in meat-eating while imitating a community setting, “the lion shall eat straw like the ox.”[16] This paradise is contrasted to Moreau’s compulsion to tame nature which is argued as an exaggeration of the problems with Western science as ‘madness’,[17] which Prendrick’s questioning monologues stand against; “I asked him why he had taken the human form as a model”,[18] when learning about the vivisections mutilating animals. The community is limited to an imitation, as Moreau has given the creatures a capacity to behave as humans through vivisection, still lacking the agency to live independently.
            The failure within the novel is performed by the obsessive instinct of the mutilated animals to kill, consume and return to their natural animal manner. As expeditions on the island uncover rabbits to be the original victims of the creatures’ regression, it may be highlighted that the figurative rabbit recognised for its uncontrollable reproduction, is here embodied as the inability to maintain control over the lives of the beast-people. Control being the primary reason Moreau encourages a vegetarian diet within the Island, as it requires a self-governing discipline, while deterring any blood-thirsts.
Having the novel begin with a cannibalistic pressure upon the narrator, as he travels toward a savage island, where the inhabitants are constantly slipping into an animalistic urge, maintains the prominence of consumption. As Lee highlights the degeneration theory circulating contextually, forced society to revaluate how to define itself from the animal kingdom through custom, as evolutionist thinking questioned the separation between animal and human, so too the consumption of meat was challenged.[19] This reflection upon custom is similar to that of Gulliver, by examining how eating fish or flesh can be easily linked to ideas of society’ devolution, while situating vegetarianism upon the evolutionary chain.  
Unlike the two previous texts examined for their animalistic qualities, Elizabeth Costello approaches the issues surrounding the consumption of animals from a human view. The novel compiles a selection of lectures, and conversations with people regarding the various sensitive issues. The chapters three and four largely circulate around ‘The lives of Animals’; as chapter three regards the philosophers and the fourth reviewing poets’ relationships to the topic. Costello voices problems with animal farming industries, and the inhumane number of killings. Inhumane as she mentions how it is only in “abstract we may be able to count to a million,”[20] with equal difficulty conceiving of others’ deaths, so inhumane here represents in unjust acts as well as humans' inability to conceive certain large ideas. To heighten the impact of her argument, Costello compares the cattle slaughter to the holocaust, reducing the people living in the countryside at the time to immoral people for ignoring the horrors ‘for one’s own sake’.[21]
Philosophically the point that Costello is making about animals, is that reason is not enough, setting a distinction between herself and St Thomas’ argument that “animals, lacking reason, cannot understand the universe but have simply to follow its rules blindly, proves that, unlike man, they are part of it but not part of its being.”[22] Followed by a correction of Costello’s ‘dilemma’ that “reason and seven decades of life experience” explain how reason cannot be anything other then a ‘suspicious’ “being of a certain spectrum of human thinking”.[23] In true character representation Coetzee has his narrator admit and understand all lengths to her own hipocracy, as she is “wearing leather shoes” and “carrying a leather purse”, while discouraging an “overmuch respect” for herself.[24]
Surrounding Coetzee’s work is an undistinguishing question to how the author’s slips between the creator and the character of the novel. Utilising Vint’s argument on the Island that Prendick is first driven from the house by the cries of a female puma, that the importance of the female symbol being physically within the animal, which inspires Prendick’s “link to female sentimentality.”[25] Sentimentality being understood as an aspect of femininity, it may be deduced that the significance of Elizabeth Costello being a female, means she has a greater capacity for sympathy. And as Doniger highlights “the assumption that any animal that one ate had to have been killed by someone led to natural association between the ideal vegetarianism and the ideal of nonviolence toward living creatures”.[26] Costello is given a greater agency but also a greater conviction on matters of the heart, the heart being, possibly a leather purse, where animals are kept.
Her sympathies with animals are laid from the first chapter, “I feel like Red Peter” a challenging statement that acknowledges the limits of literature to imitate the thought of an animal. Refocusing the argument of animal liberations away from reason, toward sympathy. The use of simile within her statement is an example of how “Costello tries passionately to convince her audience of her commitments, Coetzee recurrently dramatizes her lack of success” as isolation and passive aggressive arguments.[27] As the narrator unfolds her arguments on stage, it may be suggested that the failure to persuade her audience into Vegetarianism is a reflection for her rejection of reason. As she comments how “I am not a philosopher of the mind but an animal exhibiting” a wound which is covered up, “but touch on in every word.”[28] Concluding how Costello discourages the eating of animals but encourages through her own lectures, the reading, and consumption of animals created within the symbolic realm.

The three texts examine different approaches to how the partaking of animals affects their consumers. Gulliver’s Travels opens the digestive divide to then occupy the space, surrounded by a higher rational being of the horses with only truth and gentility for attributes, which is juxtaposed with the yahoos’ lowly being. Doctor Moreau carries on with the similar themes of rationality in association to vegetarianism, but uses a more aggressive result in animal nature when eating flesh. While Elizabeth Costello upholds the animalist liberations, argues for vegetarianism reforms to take place upon sympathetic compulsion. Despite the innumerable health benefits and inventive food options - that will be omitted from this essay - these three texts provide a large spectrum of reasons behind a vegetarian diet, and at the very least provide a platform that allows for a large enough consumption of animals through literature.

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[1] Jonathan Swift, Gulliver's Travels (London: W.W. Norton and Company, 1726). P244.
[2] Jonathan Swift, Gulliver's Travels (London: W.W. Norton and Company, 1726). P19.
[3] Jonathan Swift, Gulliver's Travels (London: W.W. Norton and Company, 1726). P19.
[4] Jonathan Swift, Gulliver's Travels (London: W.W. Norton and Company, 1726). P19.
[5] J.M. Coetzee, Elizabeth Costello (Sydney: Random House Australia, 2003). P63.
[6] Jonathan Swift, Gulliver's Travels (London: W.W. Norton and Company, 1726). P191.
[7] Ann Kelly, “Gulliver as Pet and Pet Owner: Conversations with Animals in Book 4,” ELH (The Johns Hopkins University Press) 74, no. 2 (2007): P323.
[8] Jonathan Swift, Gulliver's Travels (London: W.W. Norton and Company, 1726). P244.
[9] Jonathan Swift, Gulliver's Travels (London: W.W. Norton and Company, 1726). P197.
[10] Michael Franklin, “Lemuel Self-Translated; Or, Being an Ass in Houyhnhnmland,” The Modern Language Review (Modern Humanities Research Association) 100, no. 1 (Jan 2005): 1-19.
[11] Jonathan Swift, Gulliver's Travels (London: W.W. Norton and Company, 1726). P195.
[12] Ann Kelly, “Gulliver as Pet and Pet Owner: Conversations with Animals in Book 4,” ELH (The Johns Hopkins University Press) 74, no. 2 (2007): P332.
[13] Michael Lee, “Reading Meat in H.G. Wells,” Studies in the Novel (University of North Texas) 42, no. 3 (2010): P260.
[14] H.G. Wells, The Island of Doctor Moreau (Canada: Broad View Press, 1896). P114.
[15] H.G. Wells, The Island of Doctor Moreau (Canada: Broad View Press, 1896). P114.
[16] Ann Kelly, “Gulliver as Pet and Pet Owner: Conversations with Animals in Book 4,” ELH (The Johns Hopkins University Press) 74, no. 2 (2007): 323-349.
[17] Sherryl Vint, “Animals and Animality from the Island of Moreau to the Uplift Universe,” The Yearbook of English Studies (Modern Humanities Research Association) 37, no. 2 (2007): P86.
[18] H.G. Wells, The Island of Doctor Moreau (Canada: Broad View Press, 1896). P126.
[19] Michael Lee, “Reading Meat in H.G. Wells,” Studies in the Novel (University of North Texas) 42, no. 3 (2010): P250.
[20] J.M. Coetzee, Elizabeth Costello (Sydney: Random House Australia, 2003). P63.
[21] J.M. Coetzee, Elizabeth Costello (Sydney: Random House Australia, 2003). P64.
[22] J.M. Coetzee, Elizabeth Costello (Sydney: Random House Australia, 2003). P67.
[23] J.M. Coetzee, Elizabeth Costello (Sydney: Random House Australia, 2003). P67.
[24] J.M. Coetzee, Elizabeth Costello (Sydney: Random House Australia, 2003). P89.
[25] Sherryl Vint, “Animals and Animality from the Island of Moreau to the Uplift Universe,” The Yearbook of English Studies (Modern Humanities Research Association) 37, no. 2 (2007): P90.
[26] Wendy Doniger, “Reflections: Compassion toward Animals and Vegetarianism,” in The Lives of Animals, 93-106 (New Jersey: Princeton University Press, 1999). P97.
[27] Elizabeth Anker, “Elizabeth Costello, Embodiment, and the Limits of Rights,” New Literary History (The Jogn Hopkins University Press) 42, no. 1 (2011): P181.
[28] J.M. Coetzee, Elizabeth Costello (Sydney: Random House Australia, 2003). P71.

Monday 3 February 2014

Fragment- A fellow's perspective.





What was I thinking, I knew I would have hell to pay. I have no self control. I thought, if I could tell just one person,
I lay there, in the dark, unable to sleep. A satisfactory excitement, an excited satisfaction. In the nights’ actions, I knew this one would carry consequences, heavy ones, but I reaped the benefits; I had played my part, and for it dwelled in my pleasures. It began as a warm evening, and the room remembered that. No curtains hung, just dimming blinds that provided only peace of mind. With the street lights cutting in at angles, playing on the awakened eye so the only comforting place left to stare, was the abyss white ceiling. The blankets askew, they laid there as dead weight. They kept me complacent with reality. So I rolled over, slowly, attempting to naturalize my slow-motion, so that if I woke her, she’d understand. I gathered my randomly dispensed clothes, maintaining the level of urgency that I had entered with, only the aim was now to be on the reverse side of the door. I turned the handle slowly and gently pulled; mimicking an action she had just executed, and just as I had, the door now let white fragments blind the instigator.

Tuesday 21 January 2014

Diary Pages Entered

Day: Sunday Date: 18th August 2001 Age: 10
Dear Diary,
I feel so fun like I wasted my life on trying ot(to) make my friends like my Fiona is like the one who knows what I mean I miss her so much even if I saw her on Saturday the 11th of August 2001 and I love the bracelet that says Mandy And now I'm realy thinking that I've wasted my like(life).


  • Yeah, even at 10 I realized life would be a disappointment. 

Diary Pages Entered

Day: Monday Date: 2nd July 2001 Age:9
Dear Diary,
It is the last week of school but why am I crying well it is like no one cares about me Deb and Jas had their B'days Sarah J and Sarah R and Amy well I never liked her but Tubby where well I thought so best friends but now were almost not talking at all same with Sarah R the only been talking is Amy D H.S and teacher Matt and I don't know what to say well I hope H.S. is going to be my best friend at my new school

Diary Pages Entered

Day: Wednesday Date: 27th June 2001 Age: 9
Dear Diary,
Today I went to school and I wish that I didn't I hope that today will be the last day my mother picks on my handwritting why is it that I write so neat in my diary but no one will ever see it my writing is like this almost all the time and my mother say that I write like a 5 year old. But the thing that goes past my mind is where are my stickers I thing (think) that my sister (Deb) has them and she gave them to her friend P.s. I hate chicken pot!! (I don't even know what chicken pot is..)

Diary Pages Entered

Day: Wednesday Date: 15th June 2001
Dear Diary,
the day Matt left was like killing myself!!!! and I think I'm the only one that misss him the most and all my friends he has rang by my and I staring to think I'm not his pet after all!! (a little crying face) Our new teacher is a FUCKING BITCH (why I could spell that better then most words... I don't know) Matt was one of my best friends and now hes left me and my friends are even more pleased. I'm so happy that Fiona is well (I wonder how happy when I've recently gone through days that feel like death..) wants to grow up with me and she always understans what I mean she is my best friend 4ever and ever

Diary Pages Entered

Day: Thursday Date: 12th June 2001
Dear Diary,
Matt. F. (the teacher I mentioned earlier) has left the school and today I came up with more thearies then ever and I felt sick but doesn't everyone when they think their life is fulling (falling) apart I'm just about ready to kill my self!!!! (sketched in a little knife dipping in blood picture) Matt. F. (cause I call him by his first name to justify my relationship with a teacher as good friends) was like my school he whacksed(waxed) his leg he like dance music and his favrite(favorite) name was Jasmine and I WAS HIS PET me I felt like everything at school but now I feel sad and board(bored)!!!

Diary Pages Entered

Day: Friday Date: 8th June 2001
Dear Diary, (because I've at this stage finally looked up the correct spelling of the word diary)
this weekend is a long weekend yesterday I got my first letter off Chloe I no Ideer what I'm going to do 4 it on Tomorrow is Deb's Birthday 9th june I'm hoping to write to my friends I have nothing to do anyway I can hear people talk and making fun of my family I don't care. P.s. Kailan left the school mis her heaps she's gone to Q.L.D.

Diary Pages Entered

Day: Saturday Date: 14th April 2001
I staded (stayed) home all day in stted(instead) of going bowling Deb stayed at home too.


  • Every Saturday my mother made my weekends miserable by dragging her spawn to sit around a horribly over air-conditioned bowling center. Where other children with discoloured baby teeth would come out to play. I've enough recounts from childhood to write a melodramatic horror novel, set in one. 

Diary Pages Entered

Day: Friday Date: 13th April 2001 Age:9
it was the most boringist day of my lire(life) all day I whached(watched) TV it was the slayerfest it was on 4 the 4 easter days all the way was Melody so that was my day boring na


  • Melody with a sister's friend that for a short time lived with us, she occupied nothing but the obnoxious bitch role within a household. Slayerfest is the buffy marathons that would interrupt my demanding regime by inhibiting my over consumption of bad cartoons.

Diary Pages Entered

Day: Thursday Date: 12th April 2001
Today we did not work at all we watched the movie dorsors(no idea what film that would have been) it was so boring cos I've seen it I went on the enternet(internet) I went to cartoonnetwork I played pillow fight I lost and then I played Lazer beem I got busted 6 times so then I vs Ruderuff boys lost again so ya my sis Deb got to the book and its a mess new


  • So for anyone I verse in videogames, I'm really bad at them in childhood and haven't improved in adulthood.

Diary Pages Entered

Day: Wednesday Date: 11th April 2001 Age: 9
Today it is one day before Easter and we had Mis Butcher she is so so so so mean but shes ok if where(we're) good and I went over Sarah's she is my best bud in my new school she has a pool and a realy realy pritty and nice room. After Sarahs Mum and I went shopping out of my family I'm one out of 3 who knows that we are all getting Easter eggs 4 easter I'm getting a powerpuff girl egg!!

Diary Pages Entered

Day: Teusday Date: 10th April 2001 Age: 9
Today things went like a normal day

Diary Pages Entered

Day: Monday Date: 9th April 2001 Age:9
Today we have no homework my teacher is a show off and we cann't go in on fridays any more and it's realy boring out side and Andy out coodes everywhere begos(because) it's bad bad bad and realy bad and all day was work work work work work work work work alllllllllllllllllllllllllll dayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy so that is my day at school.


          I remember writing this entry and being a new diary I wanted every day there to be an entry, and it must be at least one page long. So to achieve that I strategically stretched out the lettering in certain words. Simultaneously accomplishing a poetic form of replication with language, do you not agree?

Diary Pages Entered

Day: Sunday Date: 8th April 2001 Age: 9
I went to see RugRats in paris it was so so so so so so so so so so CUTE! Bob father In the binning (beginning) of it was sad Kimi is the best I think. After that we went to the book shop then we had dinner I feelet (felt) sick so I didn't eat much 4 dinner.

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Day: Saturday Date: 7th April 2001 Age: 9
 Today I went bowling and Jess was there and a friend some friends she didn't even plan with Jess she was  playing hand ball inste(a)d after that we went to Jones 50th at the woolshead it was ok I had better Sarah had to hang with me so ya then after that we went to Sarah's it was K lucky we didn't stay long or who knows

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Day: Friday Date: 6th April 2001 Age:9
To Day at school it was the cross country I helped my teacher get ready 4 the garage sale and I got realy derty (really dirty) and I fownd (found) out that I'm the teacher's pet and I know that lots of kids like as in love him realy he is just a teacher and to be his pet is realy nice 'cos I get heeps of candy and who does not like candy? Well I love candy and he has lots of it at school I'm in a group called the 5 Babes there are Bab, Grove, QT, Tubby and Ma. Bab is K.J.K, Grove is Amy C. Q.T. is Sarah R, Tubby is Sarah J and Man is Mandy to bad is that anyway I don't run in the C.C. (cross country) I didn't bring a note in that I could go out og school grounds so ya and to day is the first day that I got this book I think that it is so cute well I gotta go I gotta send letter.

Diary Pages Entered


Dream Page:

This is the first page of my childhood diary that requires the owner to scribe 15 dreams from themselves.
  1.  I dream to be a teacher
  2. To go back to my old school
  3. To see my best buds
  4. Sarah to meet Tara and Fiona
  5. I dream to be an arcatect (architect)
  6. Get a boyfriend (Scribbled out name)!!!!
  7. Don't forget my past ever
  8. Keep my best friends and make more
  9. Die!
  10. Get good grades in high school 
  11. Run away from home
  12. Be rick (rich) 
  13. Help others
  14.